It Changed Me Forever.

by debi9kids on January 27, 2010

I have never played along with MamaKat’s Writer’s Workshop before, but have seen it many, many times on some of my favorite blogs I read and after reading the prompts for this week, I just felt the need to play along.

3.) Describe in 1000 words or less a time when something happened and you knew that life would never be the same.

Sadly, this is a very easy one to write, especially this week, which marks the one year anniversary of the passing of my dear friend’s daughter, Tuesday.
I will never forget the day that it happened and will never be the same. EVER.

On January 28th, I had spoken to my friend, Jess, Tuesday’s mom, and found out that Tuesday was not going to beat cancer and that is was time for the family to prepare to say “goodbye”. The doctors had given the family a few weeks, but Jess knew it was going to be sooner.
I remember sharing the information with all of our twin mama friends and I remember how hopeless we all felt and how we all were praying somehow, any way possible, that a miracle would happen.

On January 29th, Jess posted on her blog, photos of her with the girls (Tuesday and her twin sister, Piper). Photos that tore at my heart and Jess’ words made me ache.
I knew.
Just…… knew.

January 30th, all of the moms were trying to figure out how we would make sure all 45 of us were told. Whom would call whom. To make sure that none of us had to find out online…
We thought we had a few days.
We didn’t.
My friend Sharlene called me. As soon as I saw her number, my heart stopped.
I answered the phone and heard,” She’s gone.”
She’s gone.
The world stopped.
We exchanged a few words and then knew we had the incredible task of calling our friends and telling them.
I don’t remember what I said.
I remember crying.
A lot.
In between calls.
At some point, we discovered that Charley, Tuesday’s dad, had updated their blog, by simply putting the dates.
October 11, 2006 – January 30, 2009
Those dates stop my heart.
They grip hold and tear until I can’t breathe.
And not a day will ever go by that I don’t think of Tuesday and her family and weep for what they have lost.
What we have all lost.
Tuesday was this incredible soul. This child with a spirit that could be felt thousands of miles away. A child whose strength was inspiring and whose memory will forever hold a HUGE place in my heart.

Knowing Tuesday. Knowing Jess.
For that, I am thankful.
My life could never, and will never, be the same.

PLEASE remember to go to THIS POST. I am donating $1 for every comment to Pediatric Cancer Research in Tuesday’s name.

MamaKats’ Writer’s Workshop & thankful Thursday at Lynn & Laurie and Following Him

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