Tonight I have my “second date” with Russ.
And, although it sounds silly, it’s exciting to be starting over like this.
I remember back to when we first started dating and each time he would come to pick me up, I would have butterflies in my stomach and would wait all night long for him to kiss me goodnight.
It’s been a really long time since I have had butterflies like that.
Last week, we went out on our first date. It was just a simple dinner date, but it was a great first start.
For the first time in a really, really long time I actually got dressed up…. you know, fixed my hair, wore pretty clothes, and felt good about myself.
I came down the stairs ready to go out and was greeted by my girls gushing over how pretty I looked and telling me that they wanted to fix my make-up for me. (make-up… opps. I had forgotten that.)
I allowed Stephanie & Gabi to “make my eyes pop” and then I waited for Russ to finish his shower so we could head out.
As he came into the kitchen, again, for the first time in a long time, I actually saw him look at me. Really look.
Not that he hadn’t noticed me in the past, but it’s been a long while since he has looked at me like that and suddenly….
there were those butterflies.
We walked out to the truck after saying goodnight to the kids.
Russ held my door as he always has and then he got in the truck and before we left, he turned to me and said, ” You look beautiful and smell great.”
Those were words he has said to me before, but words that now take on a whole new meaning because everything is new again.
And those butterflies…. they are fluttering around and making me nervous.
But, a good nervous, where I know the end of the night won’t leave me crying, but instead looking forward to each new day.