Those are the promises Russ and I made to one another 15 years ago tomorrow.
It’s a date I have looked forward to reaching for a long time, a date I had planned on us renewing our vows. I have wanted to do this for the longest time because it has bothered me since the day we married that it wasn’t celebrated in a church.
Our wedding was simple and small, surrounded by our loved ones and closest friends and I wouldn’t change that for the world, but now, more than ever, I wish we had made those promises to one another before God, in His house.
Somehow, I wonder if it would’ve made a difference… if it would’ve made the vows mean more to us.
We both took those promises for granted. Above all else, we didn’t cherish one another as we should have and 15 years later it’s in our faces so clearly how much we would’ve lost if not for our faith.
It is through God that we are finding our way back to cherishing one another, truly cherishing each other and the precious time we have together.
We won’t be renewing our vows tomorrow.
We aren’t ready.
But we will eventually be doing it, when we’re sure we’re ready to make those promises and mean them.
There is love,
there is hope,
there is happiness,
there is life after infidelity.
We’re getting there, slowly, but surely, with forgiveness, honesty and big doses of humility.
Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal. ~ 2 Corinthians 4:16-18