{oh. my heart!}

by debi9kids on October 3, 2011

This Friday my babies turn 5 and I am suddenly acutely aware how fast time is flying by. When I take the time to look back and reflect on those first few months, it feels like yesterday and it feels like a hundred years ago.

How is it possible the five years have gone by???
Because, if 5 years have passed, that means Emma and Will aren’t the only ones that are five years older. It means we all are and it means I have to face the fact that all of my kids are getting older and my nest will begin to empty soon. {oh. my heart!}

And, I guess I should admit that as much as it would be nice to have some space back, less laundry to wash, less food to cook, and more money in my pockets, the simple truth is it terrifies me when I think of my babies growing up and moving out,
gives me sleepless nights.

For 18 years, I have been a mom. I have been defined by that name.
When asked what I do for a living, I have happily replied for 18 years that I’m a mom first and everything else second and I love that.
I know women who are insulted by being called a “mommy”; women who don’t want to be defined by that name but rather by jobs they do for a living first and as a “mom” second.
And, that’s ok for them.
But, for me, nothing in this world has ever made me happier than to be able to say, ” I stay home with my kids.”

I’m fortunate.
So are my kids.
And it’s been a wonderful life,
a rich life.

I have cherished every moment and now, suddenly, it seems we are beginning a new chapter and one I wasn’t quite so prepared to begin.
Five years have gone by!
My babies will officially not be babies on Friday and I won’t be able to call them toddlers anymore.
They will be kids.
And while I have many pictures to look back on and cherish those tender first moments, my heart aches just a little bit and I wish I could turn back the clock just for a day or two to get one last snuggle,
one last sniff of their sweet baby scent,
one last moment to cherish when they fell asleep together, curled tightly next to one another…

Those moments were perfect.
And I honestly loved every.single.minute.

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{ 16 comments… read them below or add one }

Teri M October 3, 2011 at 4:36 pm

Great post – the time does fly……so as much as I can I try to find something to cherish in every day.


Tracie October 3, 2011 at 6:44 pm

Awww. so much sweetness.

I'm happy to be a mom first and everything else second, too. This motherhood thing is a blessing.


Adventures In Babywe October 4, 2011 at 4:49 am

Oh precious! My Gray turns 6 on Friday. A good day. 🙂



Kris October 4, 2011 at 4:58 am

I love that you are a "mom first and everything else second". Although I work full time I can relate to that. So touching.


CJ October 4, 2011 at 6:39 am

You know what happens once the kids are gone, right?!?! Then you get to be a GRANDMOTHER!!!


Michelle G October 4, 2011 at 7:38 am

Oh precious!! I laugh at myself often when I call the pediatrician or dentist and start out with "Hello this is Remington's mom" or "Hi Dr. this is Ranger's mom".

Someone teased me once saying that I had lost my identity. wrong. i found it 😉

Blessings to you! Thanks for sharing!

Michelle G


denise October 4, 2011 at 8:09 am

Oh yes. That heart aching and beating and saying something like this: time keeps moving and they keep growing and one day they won't be here, not HERE like they are now. I am challenged by this thought almost every day. My youngest just turned five. I SO get it.


Jen October 4, 2011 at 11:17 am

Its not fair how fast time just go by.


debi9kids October 4, 2011 at 11:37 am

I know! 🙁
Hello, my dear friend! It's been forever since we've caught up! I'll be heading "your way" tonite to try to read your gazillion posts I've missed…


Erica@PLRH October 4, 2011 at 12:19 pm

What sweet babies!

This Mom gig is the best job in the universe. I wouldn't trade it for anything. My eldest turns 18 on Friday. He's away at college now. He's spreading his wings and our grocery bill has gone down. But I miss him terribly.


Melissa October 4, 2011 at 12:27 pm

So sweet!

I don't know how the time flies so. My oldest just turned 11. Feels like she was just. born. And yet here she is, as tall as my shoulder.


Barbara Manatee October 4, 2011 at 6:13 pm

I wish those sweet baby pictures were Scratch and Sniff! I love and miss that "new baby smell!" ha!

Here I am already thinking I have less than 2 months before we hit 5….and you're going there this week!!! wow!!!


Apple October 4, 2011 at 7:27 pm

This is my first time here and I loved seeing the pictures of your beautiful children. 🙂


Renata October 5, 2011 at 3:55 pm

Yes ~ I would go back in a heartbeat. If only the Lord would give us more (sigh) ~ I know He knows best, but can't help praying for more (& I'd take twins again in a second).


Heather October 5, 2011 at 5:18 pm

Oh this is so lovely.

I love it all too. Even when it's so so hard.

Too fast INDEED.


debi9kids October 5, 2011 at 5:19 pm

Thank you and yes, WAY too fast 🙁


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