While I am embarrassed to admit this,
I would be remiss if I wasn’t honest and admit that back when Will was first diagnosed
I thought that God might be punishing me because I didn’t want to have twins.
It’s hard to even look at those words now because I can’t imagine our lives without either Emma or Will
and I’m ashamed that I ever felt that autism would be punishment.
Or that God would ever punish me period.
It was beyond foolish of me that I ever thought my son was anything but what he is -

I’ve gotten smart enough as the years have passed since he was diagnosed to realize that God not only wasn’t punishing me,
but he was blessing me and everyone else who comes to know Will with an amazing gift
like nothing we ever expected.
He truly touches everyone in a way that I can’t describe.
It’s in the way he smiles,
and laughs,
and reaches out to you and grabs hold of your heart when you least expect,
and never lets go.
You just simply love him from the second you meet him -
my Will,
Just last week, when I picked Will up from school, his teacher came out to the car and said to me,
“Will had all of us crying today at Mass.”
(every Friday Will’s school has a full service for the kids)
His teacher explained that normally Will isn’t too happy about being quiet during Mass and often needs to be removed from the room so as not to disturb the service for the other students.
But this Friday was different.
Will not only was so quiet that the entire staff was concerned he had run off,
but he also folded his hands while the staff and students said, “Our Father”
and when they were done,
Will said,” Amen.”
And while everyone stood looking at Will, amazed and shocked,
my son,
God’s Will,
sang
Amazing Grace.

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